I once discerned that Xeper
Was far from what it is
I started digging trenches
When my dirt came pouring in
Lady Liar, she lives in mirrors
When in fact
No pain can die
It was raining hard one evening in Bisbee
When ‘ole Beezlebub came on by…
All of my life,
My head’s a buzzin’
Screamin’ madness in my ear
What is Truth that’s not intrinsic—
But a brothel built on bricks of fear?
Everything is not enough.
Too much is none at all.
There my eyes began to leak
My frustrations drenched not dry.
My head’s a buzzin’ endlessly
That strength, once vibrant
Can one day fail
What’s a snake without a slither,
As he feeds upon his tail?
I tried on many wigs that day
In hopes of what I’d see
A look of dearth is all I found
Despite the black one suiting me
Who was this lawless princess here
Departing from my eyes?
Rejection smiled injury
There I caught her by surprise.
I tore mySelf away from that mask
I tried on exactly zero more
My green eyes moved to fuller reds
And ‘ole Bub stopped buzzing recklessly
This morning brought me realizations
Looming past me dark and tall
Everything is not enough,
Enough too much and not at all.